Thursday, December 22, 2011
We have been busy
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
The Story...
I can't believe my sweet baby Sydney will be 4 weeks old this Saturday!! Time is just flying by. I love being her mom! She is such a good baby and make me smile every day.
I have yet to share her delivery story due to not being able to find the time. Kraig keeps reminding me that I do need to write it down so that we can remember it all. So, here it is...
On Wednesday the 26th of October, 6 days before my due date, I had a drs apt and I had been stuck at a 1.5 for about 4 weeks and was only about 50% effaced. They asked me if I wanted to be induced. Of course I said YES! I was so over being pregnant. So I was scheduled to go in that Friday morning. We got checked into the hospital and all set up in our room and it was about 10am. Dr came in a checked me and started me on some meds to help soften me. I started to have some light contractions. 4 hrs later they checked me again and I still was not dilating and softening. They gave me another round of the same meds and I had to wait to 4 hrs again. I was checked after another 4 hrs and I had only progressed to a 2 maybe 2.5. They could not start me on the pitocin yet because I was starting to contract on my own and they didn't like how close together they were. So, instead they broke my water and quickly after that I started to have some hard contractions. A hour and a half later the contractions were getting too much for me and I needed the epidural. While getting the epidural I started to shake uncontrollably due to pain and the hormones. The dr was happy bc it seemed that I was going into labor now on my own and so they wanted to hold off on the pitocin yet again. I was checked a couple hours later and I had only progressed to a 3! Dr. decided it was time for the pitocin. At about 8 am I was in a lot of pain and if felt like my epidural was wearing off. They came in and gave me some other meds through my epidural to help me with the pain. It seemed to work for about a hour and then I was in pain again and I couldn't take it! I was shaking uncontrollably again as well. They checked me and I was only at a 4 and by this time it was around 1pm. I ended up having to have my epidural redone because it was not working and I was feeling all of my labor! I was still shaking at this point as well and could not gain control of my body. The pitocin was making me look like a 500lb woman from the waist down. It finally got to a point where I was just not progressing fast enough and my body was wearing out! Also, baby girl's heart rate was beginning to elevate. So, they told me that I had to have a C-Section. I was relieved to finally be done but also extremely scared. I really didn't want a C-Section but knew I had to have one. My wonderful husband and his brother gave me a much needed blessing and I was then taken into surgery. After 31 hrs of labor Sydney was finally born! I am so grateful for my husband and his mother!! There is no way I could of gone through any of my labor with out them!
I have yet to share her delivery story due to not being able to find the time. Kraig keeps reminding me that I do need to write it down so that we can remember it all. So, here it is...
On Wednesday the 26th of October, 6 days before my due date, I had a drs apt and I had been stuck at a 1.5 for about 4 weeks and was only about 50% effaced. They asked me if I wanted to be induced. Of course I said YES! I was so over being pregnant. So I was scheduled to go in that Friday morning. We got checked into the hospital and all set up in our room and it was about 10am. Dr came in a checked me and started me on some meds to help soften me. I started to have some light contractions. 4 hrs later they checked me again and I still was not dilating and softening. They gave me another round of the same meds and I had to wait to 4 hrs again. I was checked after another 4 hrs and I had only progressed to a 2 maybe 2.5. They could not start me on the pitocin yet because I was starting to contract on my own and they didn't like how close together they were. So, instead they broke my water and quickly after that I started to have some hard contractions. A hour and a half later the contractions were getting too much for me and I needed the epidural. While getting the epidural I started to shake uncontrollably due to pain and the hormones. The dr was happy bc it seemed that I was going into labor now on my own and so they wanted to hold off on the pitocin yet again. I was checked a couple hours later and I had only progressed to a 3! Dr. decided it was time for the pitocin. At about 8 am I was in a lot of pain and if felt like my epidural was wearing off. They came in and gave me some other meds through my epidural to help me with the pain. It seemed to work for about a hour and then I was in pain again and I couldn't take it! I was shaking uncontrollably again as well. They checked me and I was only at a 4 and by this time it was around 1pm. I ended up having to have my epidural redone because it was not working and I was feeling all of my labor! I was still shaking at this point as well and could not gain control of my body. The pitocin was making me look like a 500lb woman from the waist down. It finally got to a point where I was just not progressing fast enough and my body was wearing out! Also, baby girl's heart rate was beginning to elevate. So, they told me that I had to have a C-Section. I was relieved to finally be done but also extremely scared. I really didn't want a C-Section but knew I had to have one. My wonderful husband and his brother gave me a much needed blessing and I was then taken into surgery. After 31 hrs of labor Sydney was finally born! I am so grateful for my husband and his mother!! There is no way I could of gone through any of my labor with out them!
Kraig preping for my C-Section
My extremely swollen feet!
I was NOT very happy by this point and did not want my picture taken and Kraig still took one last preggo pic of me right before my C-Section
Welcome to the world Sydney... Me meeting her for the first time. Even though I don't remember this due to all to the meds I was on.
First Family Photo!
Friday, November 4, 2011
Sydney Elise Made Her Arrival!
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
Light at the end of the tunnel!
I had a Dr. appointment this morning and I am happy to say that I am being induced this Friday at 730am!! I am so relieved, excited and anxious! I can't wait to hold my baby girl!!
Friday, October 21, 2011
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
Just Waiting
Had a drs appointment today and baby Sydney is quite content with staying put. I am 75% effaced and only dilated to to a 2... so no baby this week. The Dr is going to induce me on Nov. 1st if she hasn't made her appearance by yet. Kraig is leaving out of town for a wedding on Nov. 8th so the little lady needs to come out well before he leaves. My legs ankles and feet are extremely swollen and they ache, I can't remember what they used to look like before all the swelling. I am done working until December and am just trying to relax until our lives change forever.
Friday, September 16, 2011
Baby Sydney's Room
Thursday, September 15, 2011
34 weeks
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
32 weeks preggo
I am so excited for this little girl to come!! Only 8 more weeks... I can do this. That is what I keep telling myself!
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Washington
Monday, July 18, 2011
100
I only have 100 days left till my due date and I am feeling excited and nervous at the same time. Reality is sinking in that I am actually having a baby. Don't get me wrong I couldn't be more thrilled to be a mother. At the same time I can't help but think am I ready for this. I know you can't really be ready for something you have never experienced before ... I think what I am most nervous for is the actual delivery part. Anyone that knows me knows I am kind of a control type A freak. So I am pretty sure it is the whole unknown and out of your control part that is hard for me. With that said, I can't wait to meet this little girl! So... to 100 more days of being pregnant please end fast because I am not one of the women who LOVE being pregnant and I am not ashamed of saying that!!
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Saturday, May 28, 2011
ITS A GIRL!!
So we found out that Wilson baby #1 is a GIRL!!! We are so excited. We have already decided on a name... Sydney Elise Wilson. The pregnancy thus far has been bumpy. I started getting nausea all day every day at around week 5. The Dr. put me on Zofran because I could not keep anything down at all. It did seemed to take the edge off and help me at least get some food down. Around week 15 the nausea started to fade a little bit and I would mostly just get sick at night. We are in week 18 now and I am sad to say the nausea is still lurking and I still having to take Zofran every once and a while. But at least I am not sick all day every day any more. It will all be worth it when she finally gets here. Other than the nausea I am doing great and rounding out in the tummy more and more each week. I have started to feel her move after I eat and I am loving it!
On another note... Kraig and I did move back to Arizona. I came in April and he came after he finished up the semester at BYU. We choose to move back to be closer to family and financially it just made more sense for our family. Both of us were fortunate to get our jobs back. I am so happy to be working back in my old salon!! We are thrilled to be back in the sun and we both decided that we never want to move away from it. We moved into a house in the beginning of May and we are loving having a back yard... I think Howie our dog is in heaven being able to run and chase birds out there.
Our little growing family is doing great and couldn't be happier!
On another note... Kraig and I did move back to Arizona. I came in April and he came after he finished up the semester at BYU. We choose to move back to be closer to family and financially it just made more sense for our family. Both of us were fortunate to get our jobs back. I am so happy to be working back in my old salon!! We are thrilled to be back in the sun and we both decided that we never want to move away from it. We moved into a house in the beginning of May and we are loving having a back yard... I think Howie our dog is in heaven being able to run and chase birds out there.
Our little growing family is doing great and couldn't be happier!
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
We are pregnant!!
We went to the Drs. today and we are 9-10weeks pregnant! Mom and baby look healthy thus far. We feel so blessed to be pregnant again and have the chance to have this sweet spirit in our lives. We both cannot wait to be parents!
Friday, February 18, 2011
Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation are those who have struggled to attain their dreams.
A dear friend of mine sent this to me and I have found it very comforting and that I would share it.
"There are women that become mothers without effort, without thought, without patience or loss and though they are good mothers and love their children, I know that I will be better.
I will be better not because of genetics, or money or that I have read more books, but because I have struggled and toiled for this child.
I have longed and waited. I have cried and prayed.
I have endured and planned over and over again.
Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation are those who have struggled to attain their dreams.
I will notice everything about my child. I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore and discover. I will marvel at this miracle every day for the rest of my life. I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of my child, knowing that I can comfort, hold and feed him and that I am not waking to take another temperature, pop another pill, take another shot or cry tears of a broken dream. My dream will be crying for me.
I count myself lucky in this sense; that God has given me this insight, this special vision with which I will look upon my child that my friends will not see.
Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to or a child that God leads me to, I will not be careless with my love.
I will be a better mother for all that I have endured. I am a better wife, a better aunt, a better daughter, neighbor, friend and sister because I have known pain.
I know disillusionment as I have been betrayed by my own body, I have been tried by fire and hell many never face, yet given time, I stood tall.
I have prevailed.
I have succeeded.
I have won.
So now, when others hurt around me, I do not run from their pain in order to save myself discomfort. I see it, mourn it, and join them in theirs. I listen.
And even though I cannot make it better, I can make it less lonely. I have learned the immerse power of another hand holding tight to mine, of other eyes that moisten as they learn to accept the harsh truth and when life is beyond hard. I have learned a compassion that only comes with walking in those shoes.
I have learned to appreciate life.
Yes I will be a wonderful mother."
-Unknown
"There are women that become mothers without effort, without thought, without patience or loss and though they are good mothers and love their children, I know that I will be better.
I will be better not because of genetics, or money or that I have read more books, but because I have struggled and toiled for this child.
I have longed and waited. I have cried and prayed.
I have endured and planned over and over again.
Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation are those who have struggled to attain their dreams.
I will notice everything about my child. I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore and discover. I will marvel at this miracle every day for the rest of my life. I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of my child, knowing that I can comfort, hold and feed him and that I am not waking to take another temperature, pop another pill, take another shot or cry tears of a broken dream. My dream will be crying for me.
I count myself lucky in this sense; that God has given me this insight, this special vision with which I will look upon my child that my friends will not see.
Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to or a child that God leads me to, I will not be careless with my love.
I will be a better mother for all that I have endured. I am a better wife, a better aunt, a better daughter, neighbor, friend and sister because I have known pain.
I know disillusionment as I have been betrayed by my own body, I have been tried by fire and hell many never face, yet given time, I stood tall.
I have prevailed.
I have succeeded.
I have won.
So now, when others hurt around me, I do not run from their pain in order to save myself discomfort. I see it, mourn it, and join them in theirs. I listen.
And even though I cannot make it better, I can make it less lonely. I have learned the immerse power of another hand holding tight to mine, of other eyes that moisten as they learn to accept the harsh truth and when life is beyond hard. I have learned a compassion that only comes with walking in those shoes.
I have learned to appreciate life.
Yes I will be a wonderful mother."
-Unknown
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Trials are ment to make us stronger and are for our good!
Well... life in this Wilson home has been a bit bumpy as of lately. We have had a lot of friends and family wondering what exactly has been going on with us and my wonderful husband has been very discreet. And it has been to protect me. First of all I just want to say that I do apologize if you have called or text or emailed us (mainly me) lately and you have not received a response. It has been because I have had an extremely hard time dealing with life and I had not been able to talk about it just yet.
So... On Christmas Eve I found out that we were expecting a child and I couldn't of been more excited. As everyone knows I have been wanting a child for years! And I kept saying that all I wanted for Christmas was to be pregnant. We called the Dr. and made our first appointment. After talking to my sister and mother about our family history I called my Dr. back and had some questions. They asked if I could come in the following week for my first appointment. I was so excited and could hardly wait. The appointment went great and the Dr. said everything was looking good. That weekend I got sick with the flu. Then on Monday morning I started to notice some very light spotting, called my sister and she told me that is very normal. Next day spotting got a little bit heavier and darker. I called the Dr. and left a msg for the nurse. Wednesday I notice I was bleeding... call the Dr. and they want to see me right away. It had only been 6 days since my last visit and when the Dr. did the ultrasound he noticed that the baby had not grown at all. He said he was really nervous about it and that I needed to go to the hospital and get some test done but that it looked like I was going to have a miscarriage. My world came crashing down! I was devastated and could not hold back my emotions. He said that on Friday he wanted me to go back to the hospital and get tested again and then we would know for sure. That night though I started to get really heavy cramps and for sure thought that I has passed the baby. I called the Dr. in the morning and made an appointment to go back in 2 wks. That day I was in a lot of pain, Kraig called and got a prescription for the pain for me. The next 4 days were some of the worst days I have been through. I was in so much pain physically and emotionally. Kraig did the best he could to make me more comfortable and to be by my side. Monday rolled around and I was still in pain so the Dr. wanted to see me asap. I went in and they did an ultra sound to find out that I was in so much pain because I had actually not passed the baby yet. They gave me 3 options, one to let my body continue on its own to try and pass the baby but that this was not recommend because my body should have already done this by now. Two to take some pills that can help my body along, but only works for %75 of women. Or Three to have a D and C.
We both agreed that if I didn't have to, that we didn't want to have the surgery. So we decided to try the pill and the Dr. said that in a week if I had not passed the baby that I would need to have the surgery. On Wednesday after noon my body passed that baby.The Dr. didn't say exactly why I miscarried, but that it probably had something to do with what happened at conception.
I can not describe the pain I have felt over the past few weeks. I have gone from angry to sad to completely broken. My heart hurts that I will never get to hold that sweet child and tell it how much I had already grown to love it in such a short time. I wish I could say I understand why this has happened but I can't and don't know if I ever will. I have shed more tears that I ever though I had. I have lay in bed for hours praying.
What I do know for sure it that my Heavenly Father had a different plan for this child that I had and I am grateful for the small time that I had to carry it. I am so grateful that I am sealed to my husband and that one day I will be with this child. I know that my Father in Heaven knows what I can and can't handle and that I have Him to lean on during times of trial. I know that some spirits are only ment to gain and body however small. I know that I am suppose to go through this trial at this time in my life to be able to grow closer to Him. I have felt His love so strong in the past weeks and I am so grateful that I am able to have His spirit with me.
My wonderful mother and sister flew me home for a couple of days and I am so grateful they did. There is nothing like being with family when you feel like your life is crashing down. My amazing husband and been so strong for me and has help me through this and with out him I don't think I would be feeling such peace. I am so grateful that I have the priesthood in my home what a comfort it has brought to me.
I am taking every day one day at a time.Some days are better than others and some days I just have to cry my eyes out again and again. I went to the Dr. on Tuesday and they said that everything is looking good and that we are ok to try again when ever we are ready. So we will see what happens and what the Lord has planned for us.
Thank you to all of those who have sent their love and support and prayers. We have felt them so much and are very grateful. I am blessed to have so many wonderful people who love me.
So... On Christmas Eve I found out that we were expecting a child and I couldn't of been more excited. As everyone knows I have been wanting a child for years! And I kept saying that all I wanted for Christmas was to be pregnant. We called the Dr. and made our first appointment. After talking to my sister and mother about our family history I called my Dr. back and had some questions. They asked if I could come in the following week for my first appointment. I was so excited and could hardly wait. The appointment went great and the Dr. said everything was looking good. That weekend I got sick with the flu. Then on Monday morning I started to notice some very light spotting, called my sister and she told me that is very normal. Next day spotting got a little bit heavier and darker. I called the Dr. and left a msg for the nurse. Wednesday I notice I was bleeding... call the Dr. and they want to see me right away. It had only been 6 days since my last visit and when the Dr. did the ultrasound he noticed that the baby had not grown at all. He said he was really nervous about it and that I needed to go to the hospital and get some test done but that it looked like I was going to have a miscarriage. My world came crashing down! I was devastated and could not hold back my emotions. He said that on Friday he wanted me to go back to the hospital and get tested again and then we would know for sure. That night though I started to get really heavy cramps and for sure thought that I has passed the baby. I called the Dr. in the morning and made an appointment to go back in 2 wks. That day I was in a lot of pain, Kraig called and got a prescription for the pain for me. The next 4 days were some of the worst days I have been through. I was in so much pain physically and emotionally. Kraig did the best he could to make me more comfortable and to be by my side. Monday rolled around and I was still in pain so the Dr. wanted to see me asap. I went in and they did an ultra sound to find out that I was in so much pain because I had actually not passed the baby yet. They gave me 3 options, one to let my body continue on its own to try and pass the baby but that this was not recommend because my body should have already done this by now. Two to take some pills that can help my body along, but only works for %75 of women. Or Three to have a D and C.
We both agreed that if I didn't have to, that we didn't want to have the surgery. So we decided to try the pill and the Dr. said that in a week if I had not passed the baby that I would need to have the surgery. On Wednesday after noon my body passed that baby.The Dr. didn't say exactly why I miscarried, but that it probably had something to do with what happened at conception.
I can not describe the pain I have felt over the past few weeks. I have gone from angry to sad to completely broken. My heart hurts that I will never get to hold that sweet child and tell it how much I had already grown to love it in such a short time. I wish I could say I understand why this has happened but I can't and don't know if I ever will. I have shed more tears that I ever though I had. I have lay in bed for hours praying.
What I do know for sure it that my Heavenly Father had a different plan for this child that I had and I am grateful for the small time that I had to carry it. I am so grateful that I am sealed to my husband and that one day I will be with this child. I know that my Father in Heaven knows what I can and can't handle and that I have Him to lean on during times of trial. I know that some spirits are only ment to gain and body however small. I know that I am suppose to go through this trial at this time in my life to be able to grow closer to Him. I have felt His love so strong in the past weeks and I am so grateful that I am able to have His spirit with me.
My wonderful mother and sister flew me home for a couple of days and I am so grateful they did. There is nothing like being with family when you feel like your life is crashing down. My amazing husband and been so strong for me and has help me through this and with out him I don't think I would be feeling such peace. I am so grateful that I have the priesthood in my home what a comfort it has brought to me.
I am taking every day one day at a time.Some days are better than others and some days I just have to cry my eyes out again and again. I went to the Dr. on Tuesday and they said that everything is looking good and that we are ok to try again when ever we are ready. So we will see what happens and what the Lord has planned for us.
Thank you to all of those who have sent their love and support and prayers. We have felt them so much and are very grateful. I am blessed to have so many wonderful people who love me.
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Utah
We officially moved to Utah right before the new year. Life has been cold and ummm... eventful. We are almost pretty much settled in and starting to get into a routine. It has been of course cold for us and quite an adjustment from the warm weather in Arizona... and oh how I miss the Arizona sun already. Kraig has started school and is really enjoying attending BYU! I have had to go back to cosmetology school for 2 months in order to get my license transferred. It has been an adventure already but it is a means to an end right?! Right now we are just trying to get used to our new life and we shall see what 2011 will bring to us in Utah.
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